Sunday, July 25, 2010

DC Here We Come!

dam and I had a blast in Washington DC. I was woried to leave Damon and Ashton for a whole week and even more worried for my parents who would have to chase the kids around; but mom and dad assured us they'd be fine and we took off with hopes that we'd have a good time...and we did!

I've always wanted to visit amish country. I am completely intrigued by the simple life. Part of me even desires their kind of simplicity in my own life. So, Dustin lent us his car for the day and we drove up to Lancaster County and then over to Gettysburg. I was all smiles that morning. Of course it was more me that wanted to go to Lancaster than Adam, but he was a good sport about it, letting me do whatever I wanted and stopping where and whenever I had a whim to do so. I kept thanking him all day for taking me to see the Amish. I know, I know, I'm refering to them as if they were a tourist attraction (and they kind of are--just not of their choosing); yet, I do it with the greatest respect.



I was simply amazed at how beautifully manacured their homes, gardens, and yards are. I loved seeing the children and adolescents walking down the street barefoot and having foot races without shoes (and may I include that the girls were winning the boys in their race in the school yard). It did my heart good to see them working as families in the gardens together, young and old alike, as well as see them riding together in their little buggies and pony-drawn carts--young girls holding tightly to the little ones' hands and small boys sitting straight up holding the ranes as if to prove they were well on their way to manhood. It made me happy to see such wonderful things, and it also made me feel a tinge of sadness. Part of me felt as if I'd lost something, as if we'd lost something. How often do we stop to appreciate the bounties of the land, or walk down the street clasping eachothers' hands? We live in such a fast paced world that's full of modern distractions such as the tellevision, ipod, or computer that we forget to take time to build relationships and feel the satisfaction of working with the land. It is really sad, and such a tragic loss. These good people who have become the objects of thousands of people's facination, people who go about their lives despite the interuptions touristy people like me put in their way, are able to remain focused in their faith, their traditions, and withstand the weathering hand society places upon them.


They are the ultimate example of "living in the world, but not of the world." I'm afraid we've follen somewhat short of that mark. I'm referring to me, my family, Utahns, the LDS people. We've listened so calmly to the people of the world that we've let them soften our convictions, interest us in unimportant persuits, and make us feel the need for things with no eternal consequences. By listening to people's "feelings" we've opened ourselves up to confuse the differences between loving the sinner and hating the sin.



However, I do recognize the advantages we've received from our willingness to comunicate with those outside our own societal structure. Compassion is our greatest asset. While the Amish are known for shunning their loved one in an attempt to protect their way of life (I don't claim to know the details about the shunning process), we believe in the principles found in the prodigal son--welcoming back those who have strayed with open arms, not judging them for their past mistakes, giving all of us a chance to change and become better. By knowing what happens in the world, we are better able to serve, to participate in humanitarian efforts accross the globe and to welcomes those who are searching for the truth. Yes, we too are striving to be in the world but not of the world. Perhaps our route is the harder route, the one with more heartache since we see more of the world's failings, but the better route none-the-less. It is one paved with freedom of choice, where we can be inspired more for love of our Savior than having an ultimatum hanging over our heads.



I realize as I write this that I am where I want to be and I'm grateful to be a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, the one true church. But, I am also greatful for the example I witnessed in Lancaster county and because saw how they live their lives, I renew my conviction to live my life better, to more fully enjoy the simple pleasures in life and to strive to simplify all the many distractions my family and I have to deal with on a daily basis. God Bless those good people, for they are an example to us all.








Gettysburg was a more somber experience. I kept looking over cemetery hill, trying to comprehend the full extent of the tragedy that took place on the soil I was standing on. From the Battle of Gettysburg, over 7,000 men died and the surrounding homes, churches, and barns were filled with approximately 30,000 wounded. I envisioned the women who had stayed behind, working in their homes over bloodied men they didn't know. Many, I was sure, had men of their own who had fought--all the while taking care of strangers hoping someone was doing the same for their loved one. A poem was posted around the perimeter, near the place which Abraham gave his famous Gettysburg address:

Four score and seven years ago our fathers brought forth on this continent, a new nation, conceived in Liberty, and dedicated to the proposition that all men are created equal.

Now we are engaged in a great civil war, testing whether that nation, or any nation so conceived and so dedicated, can long endure. We are met on a great battlefield of that war. We have come to dedicate a portion of that field, as a final resting place for those who here gave their lives that that nation might live. It is altogether fitting and proper that we should do this.

But, in a larger sense, we cannot dedicate—we cannot consecrate—we cannot hallow—this ground. The brave men, living and dead, who struggled here, have consecrated it, far above our poor power to add or detract. The world will little note, nor long remember what we say here, but it can never forget what they did here. It is for us the living, rather, to be dedicated here to the unfinished work which they who fought here have thus far so nobly advanced. It is rather for us to be here dedicated to the great task remaining before us—that from these honored dead we take increased devotion to that cause for which they gave the last full measure of devotion—that we here highly resolve that these dead shall not have died in vain—that this nation, under God, shall have a new birth of freedom— and that government of the people, by the people, for the people, shall not perish from the earth.

A plaque said President Lincoln delivered the address after a minister by the name of Edward Everett gave a two-hour oration. The speach took a total of two or two-and-a-half minutes for the President to recite. At its completion, there was total silence. The entire audience was held in stunned awe at his words. Lincoln mistook the silence as an indication that they were disappointed. Little did he know that the Gettysburg Address (as it is now known) would find its place in history as one of the greatest speaches ever given in the history of our great nation.  

                                                                          

This poem has been quoted at our nations greatest
cemeteryies. I feel it appropriate to quote it now.

THE BIVOUAC OF THE DEAD
by Theodore O'Hara

The muffled drum's sad roll has beat

The soldier's last tattoo;
No more on life's parade shall meet
That brave and fallen few.

On fame's eternal camping ground
Their silent tents are spread,
And glory guards, with solemn round,
The bivouac of the dead.

No rumor of the foe's advance
Now swells upon the wind;
No troubled thought at midnight haunts
Of loved ones left behind;

No vision of the morrow's strife
The warrior's dream alarms;
No braying horn, nor screaming fife,
At dawn shall call to arms.

Their shivered swords are red with rust,
Their plumèd heads are bowed;
Their haughty banner, trailed in dust,
Is now their martial shroud.

And plenteous funeral tears have washed
The red stains from each brow,
And the proud forms, by battle gashed,
Are free from anguish now.

The neighing troop, the flashing blade,
The bugle's stirring blast,
The charge, the dreadful cannonade,
The din and shout are past;

Nor war's wild note nor glory's peal
Shall thrill with fierce delight
Those breasts that never more may feel
The rapture of the fight.

Like the fierce northern hurricane
That sweeps his great plateau,
Flushed with the triumph yet to gain,
Came down the serried foe.

Who heard the thunder of the fray
Break o'er the field beneath,
Knew well the watchword of that day
Was "Victory or death."

Long had the doubtful conflict raged
O'er all that stricken plain,
For never fiercer fight had waged
The vengeful blood of Spain;

And still the storm of battle blew,
Still swelled the gory tide;
Not long, our stout old chieftain knew,
Such odds his strength could bide.


'T was in that hour his stern command
Called to a martyr's grave
The flower of his beloved land,
The nation's flag to save.

By rivers of their father's gore
His first-born laurels grew,
And well he deemed the sons would pour
Their lives for glory too.

Full many a norther's breath has swept
O'er Angostura's plain
And long the pitying sky has wept
Above the mouldering slain.

The raven's scream, or eagle's flight,
Or shepherd's pensive lay,
Alone awakes each sullen height
That frowned o'er that dread fray.

Sons of the Dark and Bloody Ground,
Ye must not slumber there,
Where stranger steps and tongues resound
Along the heedless air;

Your own proud land's heroic soil
Shall be your fitter grave;
She claims from war his richest spoil
The ashes of her brave.

So, 'neath their parent turf they rest,
Far from the gory field,
Borne to a Spartan mother's breast,
On many a bloody shield;

The sunshine of their native sky
Smiles sadly on them here,
And kindred eyes and hearts watch by
The heroes' sepulchre.

Rest on, embalmed and sainted dead,
Dear as the blood ye gave;
No impious footstep here shall tread
The herbage of your grave;

Nor shall your glory be forgot
While Fame her record keeps,
Or Honor points the hallowed spot
Where Valor proudly sleeps.

Yon marble minstrel's voiceless stone,
In deathless song shall tell,
When many a vanished age hath flown
The story how ye fell;

Nor wreck, nor change, nor winter's blight,
Nor Time's remorseless doom,
Shall dim one ray of glory's light
That gilds your deathless tomb.

Despite the fact that O'Hara fought for the South during the Civil War, his words have become a type of eulogy for those who have paid the ultimate price to preserve the freedoms America stands for.  
     
This is an old barn much like the ones turned into hospitals. In fact, it might even be one of the barns that was converted into a makeshift hospital after the battle.
These are a few pictures from the monument.

Dustin and Nikki

Dustin and Nicki 
Sealed for time and all Eternity
May 29, 2010 
in the Washington DC Temple



It was a beautiful wedding. We're so excited to have Nicki in the family and are so happy that she and Dustin started their lives out right together--being worthy to entered the Lord's House together, to be cealed, and be blessed with a marriage centered around our Heavenly Father.


                            



They definitely make a handsome couple.

 




There's nothing like having someone to call your own, to be the one you talk to in the dark after you've turned the lights out on a long hard day, to have that someone who knows what you're thinking with just a simple look. A coach, a cheerleader, a confidant. Love is what gives us strength to withstand the hardships and enjoy the happiness in life. May Dustin and Nicki's new life together be full of laughter, and smiles, and peace, and safety and joy.
The weather was beautiful for the first part of the day. Then, in the afternoon clouds rolled in and the reception which was to have been held in the Shepherd home was moved into the tight quarters of the living and dining rooms. However, people remained optimistic and we actually enjoyed the intimate situation it provided.

                                       Nicki's nanna Shepherd made a beautifully simple cake.

                  To celebrate the 53 year marriage of Nikki's maternal grandparents, Venita and Elden Maughan, Nikki presented her bouquet to her grandmother. She expressed her gratitude to them for their example and told her grandma that "a bride of 53 years deserved to "catch" the bouquet."



CONGRATS YOU TWO!!!



*I took a bunch of photos, but when Nicki and Dustin were featured on the LDS Bride website, I       realized mine were nothing compared to the photos taken by their photographer. The photos above      were taken by a friend, Emily Heizer--http://www.eheizerphotography.blogspot.com/ and I copied      them from http://www.theldsbride.com/2010/07/washington-ds-lds-temple-wedding nicki.html         

Monday, June 14, 2010


Ashton absolutely loves the piano, he's definitely on track to becoming a piano virtuoso. Every chance he gets, he crawls into the back room and plunks the keys--all with a big smile and a mischievous glint in his eyes. Yes, my friends, that is the face of a child who will get away with much more than he ought to, just because he's super cute.


Ashton still isn't walking. Except, now, he's actually refusing to learn how to walk--the little stinker. Every time one of us tries to get him to stand, he buckles his knees, insistenting on returning to all fours. He can stand if he wants to, he just doesn't. Once in a great while, when he is distracted, he'll stand for a second before realizing what he's doing and crouching back to the floor. Instead, he just motates on all fours, racing around the house and climbing up our legs and furniture to get leverage.

He still loves the swing.
Nothing can make him laugh as quickly as swinging can.   

Sunday, May 9, 2010

A Typical Saturday

Our week's been pretty busy. Adam continues to try to figure out his work situation for next year. He has an apointment with the Super intendant tomorrow to see if there is any sliver of hope that he may get his contract renewed. We'll see what he has to say. As far as we can tell, the district's whole basis for not bringing Adam back next year is based on hearsay and rumour. Not one person has asked him to clarify anything or defend himself, and we're not even sure what he needs to defend himself against. It sounds like they want him to have better discipline, but nothing's ever been said to Adam about it. It is really frustrating, and I've had to work though frustrations and anger toward the district and people in the community whom I feel have betrayed us. Do people realize the actual harm rumours and assumptions can cause? Do they realize they have possibly cost a man his profession and his family to be uprooted from their home? 17,000 teachers will be put our of work in California alone next year. Who knows what Utah will be like. All I know is there are an awful lot of teachers out of work right now. How are we to compete with such a senario? Who is going to even look at a teacher that's had a non-renewal of contract when there are fifteen to fifty other teachers who have flawless resumes competing for the same job?

I understand that we are not the only ones struggling in these trying times. The economy is terrible and it is only the beginning, I'm afraid. I'm just frustrated that there seems to be no concern for truth, tolerance or the life of a whole family--especially in these trying times. How can they just uproot us without a reasonable explenation and without even getting at the base of the problems they see. It's as if we are simply pawns; we'r not human beings, we're just tools to dispose of without a second thought. I would never take someone else's livelyhood so lightly and it's hard to comprehend how they could do it. All I'm saying is they could have at least given Adam a chance to explain himself and, if they were feeling generous, help him try to fix the things they had problems with whether it be classroom management or improving the numbers in the classroom. The way they've done things just doesn't make sense to my mind; it's unethical, it's callous, it's just plain wrong.

Yet, dispite the bad decisions of other people and our own mistakes, I know the Lord has a hand in our lives. He has a purpose for us and he will not abandon us in our time of need. If we strive to trust and follow him, he will lead us to safety and joy. The road may be a little bumpy, but he will provide a way for us. Of that, I am sure. I feel his love everyday and I know he wants us to be happy.

On a happier note, the following are a couple pictures from Friday. A few of my students sang for the patients at the Beaver Longterm Care. They are such fun girls and they are truly a joy to be around.

       Jessica Jones singing alone for the 1st time.                       Emily Kitchen...need I say more?
Amber and Brianna

 
This is quickly becoming a typical Saturday--take advantage of the sun, get as much done as possible, and try to not get too tired before your done, cause there's lots of work to do...


 I finally got flowers for my yard. I hope I can keep them alive and that they will florish. Our house needs all the help it can get to look a little more presentable.

Adam replanted the lawn and then rolled steer manuer over the top of the seeds to help it grow. The neighbor kids are already complaining about the smell. I can't blame them, it really stinks!

Ashton sure enjoyed his time outside. Between chewing on his hat and eat the dirt, he kept happily busy. I'm just glad I remembered to put sunscreen on his bald head before he got sunburned.





















He learned how to climbe stairs yesterday.
This is him looking really proud of himself at the top of
our porch stairs after his first attempt at climbing.
Oh, boy, we're in trouble now!

Of course Damon spent all day riding his bike and running around the neighborhood playing with his friends. I keep thinking how great our little neighborhood is and hope he won't be too frustrated when we move somewhere else and he doesn't have as much freedom as he does now.

Good Things

The every day things are really what keep life good. Lately, our days have been really full with projects around the house and Adam helping with various activities in the school auditorium. Despite our busy schedules, we fit in fun family activities wherever we can, whether it's taking a walk, cooking together, or playing the Wii.

A couple weeks ago, Autumn and Emily came over to enjoy an evening of playing "Just Dance" with us as Ashton watched from his bouncer. The look on his face tells all...We couldn't stop laughing and I'm still amazed at how well Damon does on the song "Jerk It Out".

Damon's been learning a lot about nutrition at school. For one of his homework assignment we made bread and talked about the importance of eating grain and how it gives your body energy. We had a lot of fun, it was worth the clean-up.

It's a lot of little things throughout the day that make all the hard work worth it. We don't have a lot of big events the happen in our family--no big, glamorous vacations, no pricey nights out--just us spending time together doing things that are not out of the ordinary, but are extraordinary none-the-less.

As Ashton gets bigger, he puts a smile on my face more and more. We've been trying to enjoy the warm weather lately by taking walks almost every day. Damon loves these outings and keeps me reminded that we need to go until we load up and head out. Ashton, of course, isn't so vocal, but he gets a big smile on his face when I strap him into the stroller and spends the whole time sticking his cute little bald head out the side so he can watch the ground go by. I love that something as simple as that can fill his small world with wonder. 

He certainly fills my own days with wonder and quite a few smiles.

Ashton's recently decided he's too big for his bouncer. The other day when I tried to put him in there for just a couple of minutes, he refused by lifting his feet way up in front of his as I lowered him toward the seat. I tried, retried, and re-retried to get him in there properly before I finally just plopped him in the seat bum first and let him play with his feat while I quickly washed and dried my hands. Surprisingly, he thought it was really funny and I got a kick out of watching him entertain himself. It's still bringing a smile to my face as I think about it. 

 

Here are a couple more things that have brought smiles to my face over the last little while. They are only a tiny fraction of the everyday things that make life happy and worth it.


Ashton love the piano, I've resorted to letting him play between my feet as I teach lessons instead of allowing him to sit on my lap. Not only are his hands too busy and quick to deal with while I'm trying to play the piano, they are even worse because loves to try and play too. If I pin his hands down, he'll stretch his little feet as far as they'll go so he can plunk whichever keys his toes can possibly reach. Needless to say, he's super distracting and too cute to get mad at. So, I put him between my legs in order to keep track of him and then he's somewhat satisfied playing with the pedals while I'm plunking away. I just have to remember he's there so I don't smash his fingers between the pedals and floor.





 
On the right is a picture of Ashton in his new shoes. He thought they were pretty cool and spent several minutes checking them out, trying to figure out what they were for.

Deanna stopped by on her way through Beaver. We got pizza and went to the park. The kids enjoyed the swings the most. Here Molly and Ashton got to know each other while they shared a swing. Aren't they cute. I was actually surprised they were okay with the close proximity to one another.

Every day there is something that reminds me to be happy and helps me to see my blessings more clearly. I am definitly blessed, and there are plenty of things in my life to bring joy.