Monday, September 20, 2010

Damon’s Birthday

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Damon understood the power of being the "birthday boy" for the first time. He literally sprang out of bed and bounded up the two stair to our room the instant he awoke singing, "It's my birthday! It's my birthday!" He was so happy that his big day arrived, he couldn't hardly stop giggling. Then, the term "for my birthday" promptly became a large part of his vocabulary throughout the day. "I'm gonna get a lot of presents for my birthday." "I want to get a happy meal for my birthday." "Are they coming for my birthday," and on and on and on went the phrase. Soon it became clear he expected every whim to be fulfilled just because it was his birthday. We had to keep him grounded a little bit, reminding him that gratitude was the most important thing—even more important than what he got or what we did. I'm not sure how much of it sunk in, but I think he soaked in a little bit of the lesson.

On Friday morning, while Damon was still at school, I tried to make the requested cake (Chocolate with cherry filling). Time was getting short by the time I was ready to put it in the oven, and it didn't fit. There wasn't enough time to make two round cakes, I only had one pan and couldn't fit two in at a time anyway. So, I had to pour it into a smaller pan and hope for it to cook all the way through. Despite the fact the oven tends to cook hot, I had to leave the cake in longer than the directions say. Even then, it was still a little wobbly. I crossed my fingers and hoped that it would firm up as it cooled. Well, two hours later it was still really gooey, so I called my mom on the way up there and told her the cake hadn't turned out. Thankfully, she didn't graciously offered to make a cake and we were saved from having to buy one.

Stacie and her family joined us for pizza, cake, and a movie at the discount theaters near my parents home. Damon was all smiles. He loved his presents—a book on dinosaurs with realistic pop-out pictures, a new bike helmet and a fancy bike. He only had two things to open and I was really proud of him for being happy with what he got and not expecting more. Of course he had to ask grandma Hinton if they only had one present for him, but he wasn't too rude about, just enough that we needed to remind him about being grateful.

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

First Steps

Ashton began walking a week ago last Sunday (on August 29th), at almost exactly 14 months old. He was walking before, but it was really sporadic and he'd only take a couple steps from here to there when he was distracted. No amount of bribery or beckoning could convince him to step out on his own. He learned a couple months ago that he was fastest if he crawled on hands and toes, so he would promptly get down on all fours and rush to us or whatever his destination. But now, he tentatively walks in a step-pause-step-pause fashion toward us with a big smile on his face. He definitely knows he's doing something really special and he loves the attention. I just can't believe it's taken him this long to start walking and, furthermore, that his quickest mode of transportation is still the bear crawl (or the Mogley as my sister Stacie has coined it). Damon began walking at ten months and he practically started running immediately thereafter. One thing I've definitely learned during my short term as a mother is that kids will learn and develop at their own pace and no amount of convincing, tricking, or bribery will change when they're ready. With Ashton, we'd make funny faces, talk to him in high-pitched voices, and even try to dupe him into taking a step, but all he would do was lift his legs off the ground and do his best to wriggle to a crawling position on the floor. Man, we've got some stubborn kids!

Then, a week ago Wednesday, Damon had his first day of school. He was all smiles and excitement and hardly said bye to me before he stepped through his classroom door. He's been anxiously waiting his chance at being an official kindergartener for over a year. It was funny, for two nights before he started, he nearly giggled himself to sleep thinking how exciting it was that he would be starting school soon. And, of course, now all I hear when I pick him up is "Mrs. Packer this and Mrs. Packer that—" and "Me and Aiden this and me and Aiden that—" Aiden's his new close friend and they've been playing Super Mario at recess every day since school began, he's also been asking if Aiden could come play at our house since school began. I've asked Aiden and his mom to the park for Damon's birthday, I'm sure he'll love that.

Every morning, Damon gets up at 6:30 in order to be ready in time to ride with Adam to school. He's excited each morning and gets up eager to be off. I love seeing how handsome and grown up he looks in his uniform, which he thinks is really great like it makes school even more special for him. I just love to see his excitement for life; and while I'm sad to see him growing so big, I'm also excited to experience life with his. It's probably because of this that I got more emotional in my excitement for him than sad to being growing out of a stage with him—I made it through dropping him off for his first day without even dropping a tear. What can I say, this motherhood thing is great. It's exciting, emotion, and always different. I LOVE IT!!!

We've been close quarters the last few weeks. Since we've moved into the fifth wheel, I've learned that it really doesn't take much to make the kids happy and we can be resilient when we need to be. Damon really missed his friends at first, but now that he's started school, he seems content to just spend his afternoons with Ashton and I. He is such a good kid, he's trying just as hard to make the best of our situation as Adam and I are. And, he is so loving toward Ashton, always willing to guide him out of trouble and play with him when Ashton gets bored. He truly has a special spirit. Ashton, on the other hand, doesn't seem to notice much of a difference. He simply acts happy to have more things to climb on and he does get frustrated once in a while when I don't let him go play on the grass. Unfortunately, we only have about a 10'X35' patch of grass outside our door which happens to be sandwiched between two roads; which, of course, is not very child-friendly. Especially considering how fast Ashton is and the fact that he has absolutely no comprehension of the danger. Thankfully there are lots of parks and stores and we can go swimming at the park pool until the weather gets too cold. This is not a long-term arrangement, but at least we're together and we're having fun devoting this extra time to each other.

Yes, I am very, very blessed.

 

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Our Summer @ a Glance

  1. Adam has a hernia repair.
  2. I work my tail off building raised beds out of salvaged wood, freeze my plants twice because I forgot that I had taken them out to air, and manage to get my garden in the ground just in time to hopefully get some produce by the time the autumn frost hits.
  3. Don and Ada Hinton Family Reunion
    1. Dustin's reception
      1. Hectic, lots of visiting and food, and a late night.
      2. Need I say more?
    2. Sleeping arrangements a little tight considering two more families have been established since the last reunion; but we worked things out and all seemed to rest well.
    3. Damon and McKenzie once again hit it off. They decide they maybe could get married when they grow up.
      1. We reminisce about having crushes on our cousins when we were little.
      2. Decide that perhaps we should talk to the kids about "kissing cousins" in the near future.
  4. We work like crazy to finish all the house improvements we've started.
  5. Adam is offered a job at Lincoln Academy in Pleasant Grove, UT.
    1. Now we at least know where we are going.
    2. Damon gets to attend Kindergarten at Lincoln Academy. He starts in September.
  6. We start actively trying to sale our house with no luck.
  7. Lavar Hinton Family Reunion in Flagstaff, AZ
    1. Adam, the kids, and I go on a hike. Ashton enjoys the trip on our backs. Damon loves every minute and is still bouncing when we finish.
    2. Have lots of fun with the family. Damon meets Lizzie and now feels she might be a good prospect for marriage, too.
    3. Sean and Micole's daughter, Hadley, gets lost in the woods and Adam and I with Ashton on my back set out to help find her. We don't have much luck but she is found by a couple and brought to the fire station.
  8. Damon goes fishing with Emily and Autumn.
  9. We are still working to finish our home improvements. Adam finally puts in the grass in the backyard—of course too late for us to enjoy it, but at least it's done.
  10. We put on a Patriotic fireside. It goes really well, and there are lots of tears.
    1. For the first time I get so emotional, I need help finishing a song. Adam sings with me.
    2. The spirit is there and I keep thinking how lucky I am to know such good kids.
  11. We advertise the house for rent, get no calls till almost a month later.
  12. We throw a late-night going away party for Damon.
    1. All his friends and the neighborhood kids come.
    2. We play games, eat pizza, play the wii, watch a movie on our front lawn, and roast smores.
  13. Adam and I have a party with my voice students.
    1. We eat, sing crazy karaoke, and watch Little Shop of Horror
    2. Have a teary goodbye.
    3. Pack up and move the first week of August. The ward helps a tons to load us in the moving trailer.
    4. We're exhausted and burned out, but still have a lot to do. Make a couple more trips home to finish everything.
    5. We stay at Ammon's family cabin in Bear Lake for the weekend.
    6. Damon and especially Ashton have a blast in the sand.
    7. Damon, Ashton and I go out on the boat.
      1. Ashton spends his time staring at the water over the edge of the boat.
      2. Damon is very brave and goes out on the tube.
      3. I am brave, too, and also ride the tube.
      4. Despite missing Adam, we all have a lot of fun.
    8. Adam Starts work; and, shortly after, school begins. He has high hopes that this will be a much more positive experience.
    9. Get a couple prospective renters/buyers for our home. After hopeful negotiations we find that neither was ever actually seriously considering our home.
    10. We move into my Parent's fifth wheel until we find renters/buyers for the house.
    11. We're parked at Eastbay RV Park and are enjoying the swimming pool and the convenience of being close to stores.
    12. Damon goes stir-crazy waiting for kindergarten to begin while being cooped up in the trailer.
    13. We take advantage of the various parks in the area.
    14. Ashton handles the move much better than Damon. Damon grieves the loss of his friends and his freedom.
      1. I keep praying that we will take care of the house soon so we can move into a place where we can put down some roots.
      2. Part of me is really enjoying Utah Valley and thinks this might be a good place to settle while another part of me feels like we still might be in transition.

Through it all, the good and the bad, I continue to see blessings being poured down from Heaven. Naturally a big planner, I'm learning to be a little more patient and to have a little more faith. I just hope to be able to feel the promptings of the spirit more clearly and to better enjoy the journey. For I know Heavenly Father loves us, He wants us to be happy, and he will help us to end in a place where we may find fulfillment, happiness, safety, and joy.

Sunday, August 1, 2010

DC Trip cont...

On Friday morning, we went on a self-guided tour through the White House. Nikki recomended that we ask the guards questions. Some of them were very tight-lipped, but there were a couple who seemed to genuinely enjoy telling trivia from their respective rooms.

It's amazing to be in a place where men who have effected the history of the whole world have walked and planned and met together. I understand it's just a stack of marble, but it also represents the country that has fought for freedom and justice for over two-hundred years.

Later that day, Adam and I went to Arlington. It is such a special place. It was a spiritual experience just being there. It was a humbling experience to witness the graves of so many men who have given the ultimate sacrefice in order to ensure the right for all men  and women to be happy. Almost every visitor walks past the seemingly endless rows of white tombstones in reverent silence. In a time when respect is rare, patrons pass through Arlington in order to honor the good men and women buried there. The grounds are kept beautiful and despite the heat of summer, we enjoyed our time walking the grounds.





The photo above depicts a stature comemorating Field Marshal Sir John Dill who was a British Commander in both WWI and WWII. He served in Washington for a large part of his life and was instrumental in the British-American alliance. He developed such a fondness for his work with America that he requested special permission to be buried in Arlington Cemetery, and he was loved by many. A witness at his funeral said, "I have never seen so many men so visibly shaken by sadness."

At the top of Arlington's hill is General Lee's house. Poor Adam wasn't feeling very well that day and I dragged him all the way up to the mansion. He was a good sport, though, but he paid for it later on and I felt bad about my insensitivity. There was just so much I wanted to see that I didn't pause long enough to realize Adam was dragging. The feature that stood most out to me in regard to the mansion was the slave quarters. I kept looking at it and just couldn't get myself to believe that people had actually been kept as slaves in that rundown building. I simply cannot comprehend the reality of it. It makes me so sad, I could almost feel my chest squeezing while I stood in that building reading about the poor people who kept the household running.                                                                             


I kept thinking how hard it must have been for General Lee. A place he and his family had once called home was turned into a memorial for the lives that had been taken under his direction--an eternal reminder of the ugliness of war. It must have been a high price to pay for his betrayal of the North. Perhaps the estate itself wasn't unbearable, but turning into a place to rest for the casualties of a war he help perpetuate must have been a terrible slap in the face.





Sunday, July 25, 2010

DC Here We Come!

dam and I had a blast in Washington DC. I was woried to leave Damon and Ashton for a whole week and even more worried for my parents who would have to chase the kids around; but mom and dad assured us they'd be fine and we took off with hopes that we'd have a good time...and we did!

I've always wanted to visit amish country. I am completely intrigued by the simple life. Part of me even desires their kind of simplicity in my own life. So, Dustin lent us his car for the day and we drove up to Lancaster County and then over to Gettysburg. I was all smiles that morning. Of course it was more me that wanted to go to Lancaster than Adam, but he was a good sport about it, letting me do whatever I wanted and stopping where and whenever I had a whim to do so. I kept thanking him all day for taking me to see the Amish. I know, I know, I'm refering to them as if they were a tourist attraction (and they kind of are--just not of their choosing); yet, I do it with the greatest respect.



I was simply amazed at how beautifully manacured their homes, gardens, and yards are. I loved seeing the children and adolescents walking down the street barefoot and having foot races without shoes (and may I include that the girls were winning the boys in their race in the school yard). It did my heart good to see them working as families in the gardens together, young and old alike, as well as see them riding together in their little buggies and pony-drawn carts--young girls holding tightly to the little ones' hands and small boys sitting straight up holding the ranes as if to prove they were well on their way to manhood. It made me happy to see such wonderful things, and it also made me feel a tinge of sadness. Part of me felt as if I'd lost something, as if we'd lost something. How often do we stop to appreciate the bounties of the land, or walk down the street clasping eachothers' hands? We live in such a fast paced world that's full of modern distractions such as the tellevision, ipod, or computer that we forget to take time to build relationships and feel the satisfaction of working with the land. It is really sad, and such a tragic loss. These good people who have become the objects of thousands of people's facination, people who go about their lives despite the interuptions touristy people like me put in their way, are able to remain focused in their faith, their traditions, and withstand the weathering hand society places upon them.


They are the ultimate example of "living in the world, but not of the world." I'm afraid we've follen somewhat short of that mark. I'm referring to me, my family, Utahns, the LDS people. We've listened so calmly to the people of the world that we've let them soften our convictions, interest us in unimportant persuits, and make us feel the need for things with no eternal consequences. By listening to people's "feelings" we've opened ourselves up to confuse the differences between loving the sinner and hating the sin.



However, I do recognize the advantages we've received from our willingness to comunicate with those outside our own societal structure. Compassion is our greatest asset. While the Amish are known for shunning their loved one in an attempt to protect their way of life (I don't claim to know the details about the shunning process), we believe in the principles found in the prodigal son--welcoming back those who have strayed with open arms, not judging them for their past mistakes, giving all of us a chance to change and become better. By knowing what happens in the world, we are better able to serve, to participate in humanitarian efforts accross the globe and to welcomes those who are searching for the truth. Yes, we too are striving to be in the world but not of the world. Perhaps our route is the harder route, the one with more heartache since we see more of the world's failings, but the better route none-the-less. It is one paved with freedom of choice, where we can be inspired more for love of our Savior than having an ultimatum hanging over our heads.



I realize as I write this that I am where I want to be and I'm grateful to be a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, the one true church. But, I am also greatful for the example I witnessed in Lancaster county and because saw how they live their lives, I renew my conviction to live my life better, to more fully enjoy the simple pleasures in life and to strive to simplify all the many distractions my family and I have to deal with on a daily basis. God Bless those good people, for they are an example to us all.








Gettysburg was a more somber experience. I kept looking over cemetery hill, trying to comprehend the full extent of the tragedy that took place on the soil I was standing on. From the Battle of Gettysburg, over 7,000 men died and the surrounding homes, churches, and barns were filled with approximately 30,000 wounded. I envisioned the women who had stayed behind, working in their homes over bloodied men they didn't know. Many, I was sure, had men of their own who had fought--all the while taking care of strangers hoping someone was doing the same for their loved one. A poem was posted around the perimeter, near the place which Abraham gave his famous Gettysburg address:

Four score and seven years ago our fathers brought forth on this continent, a new nation, conceived in Liberty, and dedicated to the proposition that all men are created equal.

Now we are engaged in a great civil war, testing whether that nation, or any nation so conceived and so dedicated, can long endure. We are met on a great battlefield of that war. We have come to dedicate a portion of that field, as a final resting place for those who here gave their lives that that nation might live. It is altogether fitting and proper that we should do this.

But, in a larger sense, we cannot dedicate—we cannot consecrate—we cannot hallow—this ground. The brave men, living and dead, who struggled here, have consecrated it, far above our poor power to add or detract. The world will little note, nor long remember what we say here, but it can never forget what they did here. It is for us the living, rather, to be dedicated here to the unfinished work which they who fought here have thus far so nobly advanced. It is rather for us to be here dedicated to the great task remaining before us—that from these honored dead we take increased devotion to that cause for which they gave the last full measure of devotion—that we here highly resolve that these dead shall not have died in vain—that this nation, under God, shall have a new birth of freedom— and that government of the people, by the people, for the people, shall not perish from the earth.

A plaque said President Lincoln delivered the address after a minister by the name of Edward Everett gave a two-hour oration. The speach took a total of two or two-and-a-half minutes for the President to recite. At its completion, there was total silence. The entire audience was held in stunned awe at his words. Lincoln mistook the silence as an indication that they were disappointed. Little did he know that the Gettysburg Address (as it is now known) would find its place in history as one of the greatest speaches ever given in the history of our great nation.  

                                                                          

This poem has been quoted at our nations greatest
cemeteryies. I feel it appropriate to quote it now.

THE BIVOUAC OF THE DEAD
by Theodore O'Hara

The muffled drum's sad roll has beat

The soldier's last tattoo;
No more on life's parade shall meet
That brave and fallen few.

On fame's eternal camping ground
Their silent tents are spread,
And glory guards, with solemn round,
The bivouac of the dead.

No rumor of the foe's advance
Now swells upon the wind;
No troubled thought at midnight haunts
Of loved ones left behind;

No vision of the morrow's strife
The warrior's dream alarms;
No braying horn, nor screaming fife,
At dawn shall call to arms.

Their shivered swords are red with rust,
Their plumèd heads are bowed;
Their haughty banner, trailed in dust,
Is now their martial shroud.

And plenteous funeral tears have washed
The red stains from each brow,
And the proud forms, by battle gashed,
Are free from anguish now.

The neighing troop, the flashing blade,
The bugle's stirring blast,
The charge, the dreadful cannonade,
The din and shout are past;

Nor war's wild note nor glory's peal
Shall thrill with fierce delight
Those breasts that never more may feel
The rapture of the fight.

Like the fierce northern hurricane
That sweeps his great plateau,
Flushed with the triumph yet to gain,
Came down the serried foe.

Who heard the thunder of the fray
Break o'er the field beneath,
Knew well the watchword of that day
Was "Victory or death."

Long had the doubtful conflict raged
O'er all that stricken plain,
For never fiercer fight had waged
The vengeful blood of Spain;

And still the storm of battle blew,
Still swelled the gory tide;
Not long, our stout old chieftain knew,
Such odds his strength could bide.


'T was in that hour his stern command
Called to a martyr's grave
The flower of his beloved land,
The nation's flag to save.

By rivers of their father's gore
His first-born laurels grew,
And well he deemed the sons would pour
Their lives for glory too.

Full many a norther's breath has swept
O'er Angostura's plain
And long the pitying sky has wept
Above the mouldering slain.

The raven's scream, or eagle's flight,
Or shepherd's pensive lay,
Alone awakes each sullen height
That frowned o'er that dread fray.

Sons of the Dark and Bloody Ground,
Ye must not slumber there,
Where stranger steps and tongues resound
Along the heedless air;

Your own proud land's heroic soil
Shall be your fitter grave;
She claims from war his richest spoil
The ashes of her brave.

So, 'neath their parent turf they rest,
Far from the gory field,
Borne to a Spartan mother's breast,
On many a bloody shield;

The sunshine of their native sky
Smiles sadly on them here,
And kindred eyes and hearts watch by
The heroes' sepulchre.

Rest on, embalmed and sainted dead,
Dear as the blood ye gave;
No impious footstep here shall tread
The herbage of your grave;

Nor shall your glory be forgot
While Fame her record keeps,
Or Honor points the hallowed spot
Where Valor proudly sleeps.

Yon marble minstrel's voiceless stone,
In deathless song shall tell,
When many a vanished age hath flown
The story how ye fell;

Nor wreck, nor change, nor winter's blight,
Nor Time's remorseless doom,
Shall dim one ray of glory's light
That gilds your deathless tomb.

Despite the fact that O'Hara fought for the South during the Civil War, his words have become a type of eulogy for those who have paid the ultimate price to preserve the freedoms America stands for.  
     
This is an old barn much like the ones turned into hospitals. In fact, it might even be one of the barns that was converted into a makeshift hospital after the battle.
These are a few pictures from the monument.

Dustin and Nikki

Dustin and Nicki 
Sealed for time and all Eternity
May 29, 2010 
in the Washington DC Temple



It was a beautiful wedding. We're so excited to have Nicki in the family and are so happy that she and Dustin started their lives out right together--being worthy to entered the Lord's House together, to be cealed, and be blessed with a marriage centered around our Heavenly Father.


                            



They definitely make a handsome couple.

 




There's nothing like having someone to call your own, to be the one you talk to in the dark after you've turned the lights out on a long hard day, to have that someone who knows what you're thinking with just a simple look. A coach, a cheerleader, a confidant. Love is what gives us strength to withstand the hardships and enjoy the happiness in life. May Dustin and Nicki's new life together be full of laughter, and smiles, and peace, and safety and joy.
The weather was beautiful for the first part of the day. Then, in the afternoon clouds rolled in and the reception which was to have been held in the Shepherd home was moved into the tight quarters of the living and dining rooms. However, people remained optimistic and we actually enjoyed the intimate situation it provided.

                                       Nicki's nanna Shepherd made a beautifully simple cake.

                  To celebrate the 53 year marriage of Nikki's maternal grandparents, Venita and Elden Maughan, Nikki presented her bouquet to her grandmother. She expressed her gratitude to them for their example and told her grandma that "a bride of 53 years deserved to "catch" the bouquet."



CONGRATS YOU TWO!!!



*I took a bunch of photos, but when Nicki and Dustin were featured on the LDS Bride website, I       realized mine were nothing compared to the photos taken by their photographer. The photos above      were taken by a friend, Emily Heizer--http://www.eheizerphotography.blogspot.com/ and I copied      them from http://www.theldsbride.com/2010/07/washington-ds-lds-temple-wedding nicki.html